Young and the Restless Recap Wednesday, February 20: Walk Down Memory Lane With Nikki Newman

“Young and the Restless” (YR) recap for Wednesday, February 20, 2019, reveals that over in the jail, the guard brings Nikki Newman (Melody Thomas Scott) a box. She talks about the need to get her affairs in order and says this will help her do that. Once alone, Nikki opens an album containing photos of herself as a young girl in pigtails. She sits and begins writing a letter to her grandchildren, explaining she’s in a jail cell awaiting trial and facing an uncertain future. Nikki knows some of them will read it soon, and others later, but if she’s convicted of murder, she wants them to know who the real Nikki Newman was. She writes, “This is my life story…”

Nikki begins by writing about her mother, Barbara Reed, Casey argues with Nikki who raised her and her sister Casey after their father left. Casey grew up to become an incredible woman, a doctor. Nikki recalls when her mother was killed in a car accident and her father came back to town. She flashes to arguing with Casey about him, and Casey told her about Nick Reed’s sexually abusive past. Nikki then flashes to killing Nick when he later attacked her.

Next, Nikki recalls meeting Paul Williams (Doug Davidson). She flashes to sneaking around together in the school locker room. She then remembers throwing caution to the wind and leaping into marriage with Greg Foster, and how she later sabotaged it.

Nikki kept looking for adventure without thinking about what she was really getting into and recalls joining the New World Commune. Paul joined her there for a while but quickly moved on.

Eventually, Nikki Newman came into her own in the most unexpected of places – The Bayou. She flashes to stripping and smiles and has no regrets. It was there her life changed forever when she met Victor Newman (Eric Braeden). He is the love of her life, always has been, and always will be, though she’s married many other men. Nikki switches gears to Jack Abbott (Peter Bergman), they were romantic, but she now cherishes his friendship – she’s lucky to have him, but Victor is it for her. She remembers back to the beginning when Victor gave her a diamond bracelet and then her asking him to kiss her. It was their first kiss. She recalls marrying him and flashes to one of their volatile break-ups before acknowledging they share an unbreakable bond. Nikki thinks of one of Victor’s romantic proposals that took place in the stables.

Nikki Newman next recalls Katherine Chancellor (Jeanne Cooper) yelling at her over the phone about her drinking and talks about her alcoholism. She wonders if the addiction was inherited from her father or if it began with her back injury and taking pills. Nikki remembers Jack Abbott and Victor Newman each confronting her about her drinking over the years. She wants her grandchildren to remember that when they’re lost, they’re not alone. She flashes to discussing recovery with Neil Winters (Kristoff St. John), and advises them to take help when it’s offered.

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Next, Nikki Newman touches on how faith has helped her through her many losses. She remembers the baby she lost with Jack Abbott and Cassie Newman’s (Camryn Grimes) death. She writes about being a parent being an enormous amount of hard work, then looks back on her maternal style with Victoria Newman (Joshua Morrow) and Nicholas Newman (Joshua Morrow)– she didn’t hesitate to let them know when she disapproved. Nikki recalls arguing with Nick about Sharon McAvoy (Sharon Case) and their ensuing rivalry over the years. She remembers the feeling when Victoria was born and that feeling never goes away and you protect them because their lives are more important than your own. When they have children, you have more love to give; it’s life’s greatest gift.

Nikki Newman recalls the shock of Katherine Chancellor’s death which was her best friend in the world. She was like a second mother, mentor, confidante and best friend all in one. Nikki reflects that Katherine ‘lived until she died’ and flashes to receiving Kay’s counsel on how to win Victor – by sneaking into his bed. Nikki smiles and can still hear Katherine advising her never to take the people she cares about for granted. Nikki takes the opportunity to let the grandchildren know in the letter how much of a blessing they are to her.

Next, Nikki Newman recalls a joyous emotional reunion with Victor Newman after she thought he’d died. She hopes the letter makes the grandchildren understand her better and feel closer to her. Wherever she is, they are with her in her thoughts and prayers. She signs it ‘All my love, Nikki’.

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